Deep in My Heart

I was sitting here alone

thinking why this thing happened on me

my heart felt so painful

my mind felt so aching

sometimes my tears dropping on my face

without my consciousness

thinking of what have I done wrong.

I wish you could have let me know

what were my mistakes

and I would rather take the complaints and grudges

than being ignored totally

without knowing the truth

I wish you could have given me another chance

as you always did to others

because I still haven’t prepared yet

to let go our friendship

I always have the trust in you

because I treated you with my wholehearted

I believe that you would understand on my situation

of being in dilemma all the time

that I couldn’t let anyone knows it but you

Nevertheless, you seemed to be disappointed by me

and you pretended as if nothing happened

that this is what hurts me the most

No one seems to know how and what I felt

that my burden really killing me softly

that I was always being used for purposes

that I was always being kicked away

when I’m no longer handy

I couldn’t say it loud

I couldn’t let it go

I couldn’t be more realistic

and think mature about what had happened

because I was always keep it

deep in my heart….

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